I’m Freelancing Again!

Why I started freelancing again

This month, I’m dipping a toe in the water as a freelancer again to see how it feels.

I’ve got just one client and am doing a pretty light amount of work, but I have to say, it’s been really enjoyable so far.

It’s also a way to lift the burden off my blog as my sole source of income, and I have to be honest, it’s a relief to know that freelancing is easily within reach should I ever need the extra income.

Thanks to my past freelancing endeavors, I’ve built enough of a reputation to still be receiving referrals from friends and fellow bloggers.

Prior to going all in with my blog, I spent a few years working as a Pinterest VA and thankfully, there is an ongoing need for this service among bloggers (and any business that has a website, really).

So once again, I get to spend time creating beautiful graphics, scrolling through travel articles, and putting my hard-won Pinterest knowledge to work to help a fellow blogger reach their goals.

It’s one of the places I feel really comfortable and confident in my abilities.

I made the decision last April to begin blogging full-time, but over the year that followed, I grew to resent my blog more than anything else. I guess I liked the IDEA of being a full-time blogger more than I liked it in practice.

The pressure to grow my income month over month wound up sucking all the fun out of an activity I once loved.

Writing became a chore; I felt as though I had to conform to what the blogging experts told me to do (Stick to your niche!!! Never stray from your niche!!!1!!1) and the words that once flowed freely from my fingertips left me in a puff of smoke.

I wrote a few blogging income reports, which many people found useful but ultimately weren’t motivating me in the way I hoped they would.

It took me many months and a lot of quiet contemplation before I would let myself admit that full-time blogging wasn’t actually the path I was meant to take.

Why I started freelancing again

From where I sat, it simply looked like I was failing.

My traffic remained fairly steady, in spite of my best efforts to improve my SEO (even investing in SEO consulting for many months), use better keywords, be more active on Pinterest, get my name into big publications and so on.

I poured tons of energy into building my existing Instagram account, trying every new strategy I could think of, including many I always swore I’d never use. In the end, I made very little progress and started to forget why I even cared about Instagram success in the first place.

I also began questioning exactly what kind of influence I really wanted to have on those reading my content, and whether my current posts were accomplishing that.

In spite of the lack of growth in terms of followers and traffic, I continued to have plenty of opportunities to partner with brands that I love, which was probably the one thing that kept me moving forward even when my heart was whispering to me to chart a new course.

But the sheen of all of that slowly started to fade.

I hated how much I cared about numbers and how much of my day was spent worrying about my blog. If I wasn’t working on it, I was thinking about it–all the emails I needed to respond to, how to improve this or that, an old blog post that needed to be updated, or how I was going to boost my income in a sustainable way.

I hated how often I was on my phone. I hated that checking Instagram had become my first priority of the day, before I ever even got out of bed in the morning.

It became blatantly obvious that blogging this way wasn’t making me feel good anymore, and it was still hard to change my mindset around it.

For example, the frustration of losing followers on Instagram just because I didn’t post for a few days never stung any less. Reading “inspirational” stories about bloggers earning 10K per month never ceased to depress me.

And although I compare myself to others far less often now, I still have moments of weakness–I still let others’ success (or numbers, rather) make me feel inferior, every once in awhile.

I’m only human, after all.

Why I started freelancing again

I’m able to see the whole picture much more clearly now though, and I know that my blog stalled simply because my heart wasn’t 100% on board with my plan.

I have other passions I want to pursue. I need to give my mind, body, and soul the nourishment they need, and those needs are not being met through full-time blogging.

There are bigger and better things out there for me. I might not know what they are just yet, but I’m moving into the second half of the year with an open heart, ready to receive the gifts the universe has in store for me.

I’ll never think of the last year as a mistake, but as just another stepping stone on the path to where I’m meant to be. Progress.

Freelancing is another one of the stepping stones I’ll take to reach my next chapter.

If you, like me, are experiencing a period of transition right now, know that you aren’t alone and that it’s perfectly okay to experiment with as many things as you like until you find something worth pouring your whole self into.

In fact, you owe it to yourself.

Progress lies not in enhancing what is, but in advancing toward what will be. -Khalil Gibran

9 comments

  • Susie Jumper

    Thank you for this. Thanks for your honesty. I just created my first blog and it’s so time consuming. (I don’t even have an email list yet.) I think about the blog constantly. I’m not going to give up but I am going to stop letting in run my life. ?

    Good for you for following your heart.

    Susie

    • Leah Davis (author)

      Hi Susie! Glad my words resonated with you. Blogging is a challenging endeavor, but one that I have certainly found worthwhile in spite of my current ambivalence toward it. I created so many friendships, built useful skills that I will continue to use in my career, and allowed my passion for writing to flower in a way it never would have otherwise. So don’t worry if you feel discouraged from time to time! We all feel that way. Just always remember what it was that motivated you in the first place and stay true to that. Good luck!

      • Susie Jumper

        I will, thank you! Look forward to following your journey. 🙂

  • anna

    Hi Leah, Thanks for writing such an honest article about a subject which many experience , but few will talk about- facing up to the fact that the path you are on is not the right one for you. It is very brave and admirable of you to admit this and to act on it is even braver.
    I started reading your blog only in the past months when you were , as I now know, winding down , so I wasnt there at the beginning when you were starting, and presumably full of enthusiasm and excitement. One thing I noticed in reading this post is that you only talk about “blogging” and never mention your actual topic/ interest/ passion or what exactly it “is “that you blog about. ( If I didnt already know something about you, I would have no idea what your passion/ subject is after reading this ).
    I think the reverse should be true- that you would be talking about your subject /passion/ interest as your main motivation- the thing that gets you so excited that you just “have” to write/blog about it. The blogging part should be the vehicle/medium through which you express your love for your subject , whatever it may be. It seems like you lost sight of that along the way- that is, that the blog should be the medium you use to share your knowledge , love , passion, excitement, experience of a particular subject , rather than the “blog” becoming the subject itself.
    I think its great that you have been honest with yourself and your readers, and that you are brave enough to make changes when and where needed. Another great lesson is that you can sometimes only learn what you dont want by experiencing it.
    I wish you all the clarity you desire and happiness you deserve.
    Anna

    • Leah Davis (author)

      Hi Anna! Thanks for your thoughtful comment.

      I guess you are right in that I assumed that most readers would have some background information about me and my site, but since you don’t have much context, I originally started this blog by writing about travel and then later added topics around creating a location independent lifestyle.

      But I started my blog when I was traveling full-time and, like you said, “full of enthusiasm and excitement” about the subject. But as I grew older and the excitement of that lifestyle began to fade, I began to lose my passion for writing about it. I haven’t lost it entirely, it’s just that my life is going in a different direction and blogging about travel or how to make a living online no longer feels sustainable for me.

      I now hope to shift back to writing whatever I feel like writing, regardless of whether it falls under one of those two categories. I’m hoping that new readers will appreciate the old content AND the new direction I’m taking, since I’m not planning to continue writing about one narrow niche (I linked to several other posts throughout this one to provide some additional context–you might consider reading some of those).

      Anyway, I thank you for taking the time to comment and hope to see you around here more often! Cheers!

  • Dylan

    Congrats on making the switch! I’m in a similar spot with freelancing right now and I feel like I can relate to how refreshing it can be to go back to freelancing in a transitory phase. Anyway, major kudos for staying flexible and sharing this journey!

    • Leah Davis (author)

      Thanks so much Dylan! It feels good to listen to what my heart wants even if it feels like a scary decision. And I am eternally grateful to even have the option! Good luck to you on your own journey!

  • Ann

    Totally understand! And I really appreciate your honesty and transparency. It’s true that there’s a magic that comes from diversification. When you have to make all of your money from ONE thing it can take the joy out of it. (Not always, but sometimes.) I remember reading “Big Magic” by E. Gilbert and it was like… the manifesto for an artist’s soul. Just because you don’t earn *all* your living from your passion, doesn’t mean you’re a failure. In fact some people find it quite liberating to not do that. I guess the beauty of being an online entrepreneur (be that blogger, freelancer, or any of the myriad things one can do these days) is that you ARE afforded so much freedom… you just have to find the right shoe that fits… for your wallet AND your passions.

    • Leah Davis (author)

      So many people have mentioned Big Magic! I read it last year and then loaned it to a friend and never got it back haha. But I loved it too and she made so many great points. I agree that diversification can be liberating! That’s definitely what I’m finding for myself 🙂 Thanks for the words of encouragement Ann!

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